Raziel's boring life and crackpot theories

grimz @ 2005-07-22T21:17:00

2005-07-23T02:19:33Z

well.... at gun point i am being forced to update my live journal soooooo here we go. I am currently at danielles house... this summer has been both fulfilling yet depressing.... erin = teh awesome and 73h 7074ly 1337/\/355!!!! pwned.... well.... not much to report... I got high and just kinda wondered off............ pwned again... DJ NEEDS TO CLEAN!!!! PAYCE BITCHES!!!

i love erin brady

grimz @ 2005-04-02T20:23:00

2005-04-03T02:25:39Z

well I am bored right now.... Ryan kicked me out of his room because he needs to shove his sperm stick up DJ's chamber of death but they forgot to close to door so now I have a wide open view of my best friend's and his girl friend's milky white asses.... It doesnt really bother me much seeing how I am always left out in the action... dont know why... =_= well I have some hints to as why. but You dont want to hear me mope and groan about my life/body. OH GOOD GOD!!!!!! now them two are doing some 69 action....oh good god... now it is doggy style........ OMG BACK TO 69!! WHAT KIND OF RAUNCHY SEX FREAKS ARE THESE TWO!????? ehhhhhhh couples in love... makes me remember how sad I am to be alone..

keep it real yall

grimz @ 2005-03-16T15:51:00

2005-03-16T21:52:34Z

You scored as The Beast. Your alter ego is The Beast! But that is only a name... you are kind hearted and sweet, people just misunderstand you.

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The Beast

94%

Goofy

75%

Snow White

63%

Peter Pan

50%

Cruella De Ville

50%

Pinocchio

44%

Ariel

44%

Cinderella

38%

Sleeping Beauty

38%

Donald Duck

19%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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Im also a beast in bed....... I hope..... =P

grimz @ 2005-03-14T17:14:00

2005-03-14T23:14:43Z

Dance the night away by karchan85
Name
What you Look like
The Music	R&B

Quiz created with MemeGen!

I guess Im just too legit to quit.....

the band

2004-11-16T03:54:59Z

lets see now. Sam is back in the band as the rocking front man he is.... hopefully he can put some lyrics to our songs....... and if he foloows through for me.... man the band will be playing gigs sooner than you can say "OMG YOU FUCKING ROCK PLEASE OH PLEASE LET ME SUCK YOUR COCK!" some eminem or how ever the fuck you spell it for ya.... any way another big update in terms of the band... we have settled on a name. are you ready for it? it is

THE ORDER OF THE STARVING BISHOP!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOTTTTTTTT

also, if anyone is willing to wear one of our tee shirts, post right here....... or below or something i dont know do something to let me know.... and make me feel special *blush*

so yeah that is all that is happening now.... =P tell me what you think about the new name... duece

grimz @ 2004-10-25T18:37:00

2004-10-25T23:46:45Z

YOUR QUIZ RESULT SHOW THAT YOU ARE:

BORED!

You have nothing and no one to do, you wonder around in your pathetic excuse for a life looking for something to do and quickly use up all entertainment value in it. why? i dont know...

yeah.... for all the block headed people that wasnt a real quiz........

lets see pluses for my life

i got a double bass drum pedal and everyone knows what that means. Thats right, 2 bass drum pedals, count em, 2, 1 2, =P bored bored bored.... before i continue, if anyone is willing to help me out with this long bored streak i have been holding please contact me, =P. now on with the journal

lets see.. i have been drowning my sorrows and problems with booze which only made me more sad because my sorrows and problems are getting all the booze and there is none for me. =P
this is just to take up space, and i predict that no one will give a rat's ass about it... but any way this is matt time, no one elses time

The band = bad ass. still getting a few kinks worked out, and we added a new bassist, ryan's girlfriend. I dont know how that is going to work out but i hope it does. it still needs a name that strikes fears in the eyes of its enemies and hope in its allies. something not like blink 180gay, or sum40imgay. that was lame and i apolgize in advance for it but still, you guys get the picture so it served its purpose.
BIg news: Matt Demmler has gone under apotheosis. thats right bitches.... im a motherfucking god...... suck on that..... ok dont... because i was just kidding... i wish i was a god. IF I WAS GOD, things would be alot different, for one thing south america would be turned into a giant platform for a huge statue of myself so people in space can know that im a god..... what the fuck am i saying, i wouldnt want that kind of attention.... or would i? no i wouldnt... attention is for the weak..... and further more causes breast cancer....................................

go see team america..... on that note... AMERICA FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!

this entry kinda strayed, off to the salt mines of precalc, im like 2 homeworks behind EEE... still ranked number fucking 1 in that damn class..... sup gangstas?

duece

ze band

2004-09-30T23:23:59Z

Alright guys, guess what... The band will be playing gigs soon... i just have to pull some strings to get us started on small little gigs... ok with taht said i have some questions for the public, please help as much as you can........ thank you

first question
which name for the band do you like the best
A. Alien beast
B. Laughing at cancer patients
C. shylock and the pagans(actualy this one is void so dont vote for it)
D. Cinqo de Bryo
E. Wasted Youth........ i think that is what i said, shevat liked it
F. The Third Floor Band
G. The ADDs
H. National French Honor Society

ok H was a joke gone bad but yeahh next question

Who wants to be a groupie? we need to get the list down to tell the bouncers at our after-gig party....

3rd question
who wants to help us out on vocals here? well we would audition you and tell you if you got in, because im just a douche like that....

aight... i hope the few who reads my live journal can help us out... thank you kindly

DUECE!

ohhhh and PS

if there is any girls looking for a single guy who enjoys long walks on the beach and sharing emotions then give me a call ;-P
joshin..... for the most part

time to log out
your lovable and single matt

shocking news

2004-09-12T12:23:52Z

Well heres the down low people. I have recently found out that not many people know my religion or just made up what they thought i believed. I intend to educate everyone on my religious preference since it seems not even ryan, one of my best friends, knows what the hell i believe.

Well it all started when people came over to my house for lunch on friday. Klieman was spoutting off his teenage angst against atheists and some other religious group to which i reply "Im ahteist." Ryan who was standing right behind me just stared at me and said "Dude your agnostic." i said "No, im Atheist." I guess he thought i didnt know what the hell atheism was because he started to try and explain agonostism and atheism. Pretty much after his first words out of his mouth i say "I dont believe in a higher power. There is no god. Im an Atheist." klieman retorts "Dont be so quick to judge there is no god." I respond "I was a devote christian from birth till the age of about 13 or 14. Dont be so quick to judge there is a god." We changed the subject a little later.

Ok, so now that you know that im an atheist, Im sure some people will think less of me because of this. I dont know why some people think they have the answers but then again i guess if you never really question your religion you become pretty damn stubborn. If you dont believe in fate, which i dont, then dont go around saying your jewish, christian, muslim, or a follower of most religions in fact. Why do you ask? well because Gods in most religions are considered all knowing. The bastard is even considered to know shit before it even happens. If this is true, then everyone has a predetermined path made by this omnipotent being, thus fate. Im pretty sure more than half the religious freaks never figured that out. God = fate. Brilliant i mean, they just took some old time belief, gave it a new name, wrote some stories, and BAM! new religion.

Now dont get me wrong here. I have nothing against religion, organized or unorthadox, I just hate people telling me what i should believe or what i do believe because that is what they believe and they never botherd to even think twice about it. Personaly, I think religion was, at first, made to be a set of guide lines one should follow in order to live a better life and making it better for others and hopefully leading to utopia, or heaven, afterlife yatti yatti yatti. Personaly I think the afterlife or the heaven promised by most religions is just a metaphor for the way we want to world to become, but it got all fucked up when some literal douche bag started teaching it wrong turning it into an economic power house. Most of that is directed to the christian, jewish, and islamic faith because those are the religions im most educated in and the ones that give me the this problem of bullshit being handed to me by the ignorant masses. I find no answers from religion that i cant just pull from science or a history textbook, with the exception of how one should live his life.

The guidelines of bringing others joy, helping out your neighbor, and just being a good person are what people should preach. Not this fucking bullshit about this all powerful creater shit. I wouldnt mind it so fucking much if the god damn christians would come to my door and say "Hey, you should be a good person to who ever you can. If you dont know how, let me teach you how." instead of "BELIEVE IN GOD OR YOUR GOING TO HELL!" But what really got me was the dont be too quick to judge part from kleiman. I bet he has never once questioned his religion, he just took what was spoonfed by the "holy man" to him and said "Thank you sir, ill be back next week."

Another thing i dont like about religion is the damn fact it promotes inequality. I dont think that is how it started, but i mean look at it. Some people are more holy then others, only the good go to heaven, some people are superior, beliefs like that only make things worse for the world and not fulfill the purpose, or so i think, of religion. There is a story that is like when Jesus was sitting with his home skillets at the last supper some woman comes barging in and washes jesus' feet and states that she has commited adultry and begs for forgiveness, to which jesus washes her feet and asks her to dine with them or something along those lines, it has been a while since i read the bible so please forgive me if i get something wrong, jerks =P. To me, that sounds like Jesus, who if he did exsist would be like 20 times more holy than the pope, didnt want any inequality to me, but some jack ass came up with this whole pope idea and social system bullshit. I guess the "holiest men alive" forgot to remember that story because from alot of history the popes sound pretty power hungry *cough crusades* Priests fall in this catagory as well. I guess you dont realize it but if you are religious and you do have a priest or minister, you probably think him to be a little more divine then you. Just think about it.

I mean look at like fairy tales and stories from the bible and you will see some strange likeness like, OMG THEY TEACH THE SAME BASIC PRINCIPLES! i mean its almost as if someone made up these stories so people would be able to see what happens if you do something wrong and the good from doing something right. WOW! Like the story of the hen that made all that bread and none of the other farm animals helped her out but all wanted in on the goods, to which the hen clearly stated "FUX J00!" This sounds like the story is trying to teach that being helpful to others will pay off in the end, but not being helpful will reap you no rewards. Hmmmm sounds an aweful like something the minister kept trying to preach when he wasnt making the dumb shits in the church eat the lord and savior bullshit. I do applaud the preacher for trying to teach people something good, but when you dilute it with this fucking promisses of heaven and hell and pretty much forcing them to believe that the only thing one can gain from religion is a misunderstood idea of salvation it gets rather annoying. The bible is also saturated with bull crap stories that teach follow jesus or your going to hell. I dont know but something seems lost in translation; because of i dont think people are getting the right idea about this religion thing.

With all the corruption in religion now adays, why follow it and have to go through all the god damn customs and shit and completely miss out on the entire idea of it when I can get what they should be teaching and save about 10 years of wasted life?

That sums up why im not religious, now onward to why im not agnostic. The idea of a supernatural force creating everything and then governing us from then on just sounds like farse to me. Fantasy is good once and a while to escape this hell hole of an earth, but not to be set as a friggen life style. God seems like a childrens story for an answer we couldnt answer any other way. But now that humans have gathered thousands of years of knowledge, we can explain alot of things that we could not explain say 4000 years ago. such as why the grass is green, how the wind blows, the reason for meteor storms, and so forth. To sit there and say "Well i believe in a higher power, I just dont know what it is." seems so oh i dont know whats the word ummmm not undecisive but just stupid and a total waste of time and energy. I mean your not getting any of the pros you might be getting from taking a stand point but you sure as hell are getting alot of the cons. There are no reasons to be an agnostic, it might be what you believe, but if you truely did believe in a higher power i would hope that you have some idea on what it should be like and then pick the fucking religion you want instead of standing around babbling like an uneducated idiot. I guess agnotism is just the way for the people who dont give a flying fuck about religion but want to make other people happy so they just say im undecided, which not only doesnt work but shows how much of a sheep you really. goddddd dammmmmnnnn youuuuuu. To even think about classifing me as an undecided dult is not only an isult to me, but just shows how much time and thought some people are willing to put in on a decision that does govern how you live. I mean i get shit from my eldest sister EB about me being "Agnostic" then me saying "dude im an atheist." and then she thinking that im just an idiot who doesnt know what either of them are starts to explain what both are, which i have always interrupted her in the beganing and told her what both mean and then restated the fact that i dont believe in a higher power. Just because she isnt a mother fucking atheist doesnt mean no one else can be. she even had the audacity to tell me "most people who say they are atheist are agnostic." well give my regards to those idiots im not fucking one of them. Just because some 12 year olds think they can be all bad ass and use a vocabulary term they dont even fucking know doesnt mean that all people who say they atheist dont know what the hell they are talking about. I mean it's just as bad, if not worse, then constantly complaining to me about becoming a fucking religion. It is just fucking ridiculous.

If any one gets offended by this post im sorry, well to most. Im not trying to push atheism, which is a big pro to it, most atheists are not stupid douches trying to spread their fucking religion, they have always had followers bitches, on anybody. I really dont care what the hell you might fucking believe, if anything at all. Im just sick and tired of people either A. thinking im too quick to judge and that i have no reason to be an atheist or B. thinking im agnostic because that is what they and im sure as hell not religious and no one can be atheist. =P
any way im out

duecage.

grimz @ 2004-08-13T22:57:00

2004-08-14T04:06:43Z

98% of the teenage population
does or has tried smoking pot.
If you're one of the 2% who hasn't
copy & paste this into your journal.

nahh im just fucking with yall =P

AND WHO SAYS THAT NOT SMOKING IS COOL!? LOOKING AT THOSE STATISICS..... the people who dont are loosers..... fucking pussies..... and fat hobbits...

well lets see now
On monday, Eric's and Claire's B-day, i went shopping for eric's gift with claire and then we went window shopping at the mall which was surprisingly fun. Then we went to the "2nd tallest building in the city" and we looked out over the city, my city. Claire is the type of person I like to hang around because she always has an idea on what to do and what just say "I dont know whatever you want to do." when you ask what they want to do. SO claire's and My outing was very good. Erics party was good..... i was kinda depressed through out it sorry eric =P

tuesday and wednesday = not important nooo what the fuck am i talking about
Wednesday was friggen awesome... i went to a club with my older sis and her boyfriend josh and it was fucking sweet... i got promises of chicks. =D i want a chick...... any way I got a little tipsy but other than that nothing much, my sister got trashed

Please excuse my terrible writing im not myself and personally im in a rather bad mood, being around some people does this to me but enough of my complaining......

thursday hung out with traci.... saw a movie...... and met her hunky older brother..... sighhhhh so dreamie.....=P ryan came over after traci left me for her best friend, she who shall not be named. Ryan and I hung out and then went to a pool party where i got a girls number EEEEE im sooo excited im like starting to get chicks..... sighhh not really though... being at the party made me realize how much i miss mike =P and JJ.... and all of my friends besides the point.....

Friday claires party was fun nothing happend just some grab ass...

ummm lets end on a pathetic note....

umm hello girls, my name is matt, i umm enjoy short walks on the beach because long walks make me tired... CALL ME!!!

=P

your single and depressed Matt

hmm

2004-08-02T07:48:10Z

jesus it is early in the friggen mourning and i cant sleep...... sighh... but im not tired... damn aderal keeping me up all night =P
well lets see, band camp starts today.... from 1-9 how lame can you get? yeahh soo this week im pretty much taken... im getting more serious about tennis, starting to take my lessons again with niel which is a friggen rockin dude... his band is recording an album and he said ill get one totaly sweet.
today was well odd. i woke up at around 10 because of my mother abusing the intercom system, all i have to say to that is wtf mate. within about half an hour i was told to get dressed and do the recycling and it i did it. then i played tennis with the family, I was my usual self, sarcastic, rude, playful, and cocky =P what can i say when i play my family, and i know their game inside and out, i cant help but be a little say... assish =P but what can you do.... hmmmm ties with many friend ships have weakend, sad yes but i couldnt do much to prevent things like that. I miss alot of people, some people i dont want to think about but they keep haunting me yeah, ADD is friggen annoying BACK TO GOD DAMN DAY! alright since i was playing my family i know how high they can reach, how fast they can run, how they play mentaly and so forth but some how amy bested me out. She kept faking me out i was like she is going to pound it cross-DOWN THE LINE!!!!! any way after that we came home and had a gaint home cooked meal which i helped prepare, and then i read some of my book

now seriously guys Dracula is a friggen awesome book and i suggest it already to anybody who likes thrillers. The dude is like totaly pimp man i was up till 1:30 reading that shit decided to hit the hay, couldnt and started this post. Im about half way done with the book, sorry im a slow reader, but im so friggen hooked on it. How he writes like it is a journal or in letters is just amazing like you are acctualy reading letters or a journal but you still get a highly detailed story line. i think it is nothing short of sheer genius. I wish i could write like Bram Stoker but alas all great things must come with work =P what can one do eh? any who.. im kind of depressed that summer is ending so soon, but then again im kinda glad it is ending. You know we can get back into the swing of school and learn something. I dont know what is with me, I like being productive but i just dont have the drive to be..... is that a bad thing.. it seems like it..... sighhh i was supposed to have my eagle done but i havent worked on it at all.... it gets rather annoying boy scouts and all but im so close i should just finish it off you know mates? sighh but i am le bored... i wish i could get some friggen sleep but something is telling me that im going to be hiped up on coffee tomorrow.....
i went over to david's house to play some holdem with JP, David, amy, and kelly and after about an hour of playing i go all in so does jp, and david and we all agree, we all being david jp and i, that who ever wins this hands gets it all. jp turns over 2 pair as does david and i follow with a full friggen house and i say YES BITCHES!!!! and then i work away happy =P we swam and then went to go see harold and kumar go to white castle i already have seen it but i was willing to go again. It is really funny. and it *gasps* has a message, corny one but a message none the less. well this pretty much wraps up this update.. im off to find something that will knock me out duece

and ummm if any girls are aviable and are looking for a good time give me a ring a dign ding =P

payce

matt

hello all

2004-07-26T15:48:19Z

alright now...... this is and will be my last post... so i better make it count... so bens parents can get an eye full eh eh??? never mind moving right along i promised big news and now you guys are getting it.... it was BUM BUM BUM RYANS BIRTHDAY!! YEAHHHHH i came to thatg knowledge about a month before it happend didnt think much of it and said hey.... ill get him some CDs but a week before his birthday i took a big look inside me(AKA my wallet) and found it in my heart (my funds) to throw ryan a HUGGGEEE PARTY!!! YEAHHHHHHHHHH WOOOOOOOO!!!! any who.... i struck out in finding a list of poeple that would please ryan to be around.... i gatherd ben, JJ, Evan, and myself..... and the fun didnt stop there... i told each of them hey ryans b-day lets rock it old schoool so we did.... i talked to ryans parents and had a three day long debate with them on the reasons i should be allowed to take ryan out for the time of his life.... they said yes in about an hour... i just dragged on the debate =P after consulting with his parents i found myself with out a gift and with out a rock solid idea on what to do.... first htings first i needed a gift so it was ONWARD TO THE MUSIC STORE!!! after shopping around the new mars(not its real name.... dont want to get a copywrite infringement(SP)) i realized that i couldnt afford anything there with the exception of a pik or what not and after blowing hte entire afternoon i realized that tomorrow was ryan's birthday and MY CHEMISTRY FINAL!!! so as the deligent student i am... i played fairy land till the break of dawn =P (I got me a 93 in dat class i r teh h4x0r) moving on......... lets see so after the final (eric and i finished early so we got out at about 10) i headed on to the warehouse of CDs!! yeahh picked him out a couple of CDs (IN MY PRICE RANGE WOOO) and returned home to await my guest... ben came over first and we hung out a little bit but then i got a call.... and the voice on the other line spoke to me in a soft tender voice, that voice was no one other than JJ. His voice like an angel spoke to me with such romance and ummmmmmmm some very poetic word....... and he said to me... PICK ME UP YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!! i ofcourse said roger doger.... but i didnt get around to it until like 5..... evan then came over and BAM it hit me... well she just reminded me.. whats a birthday with out a birthday cake ONWARDS to RANDALLS!!!!!!!!! we picked up a cake and some other things......(gum, ben, prostitutes, prostate cancer) with the cake in hand and presents in the other, i set foot for JJ's house of pancakes.... to pick up JJ.. what a fellow that dude is.. but sadly he is leaving me AGAIN!!! and the pain will be unbearable..... well sort of..... moving on.... we picked up JJ and got over to ryans and then ben said well not said but yelled SHIT I FORGOT RYAN'S PRESENT!! i turn around in break neck speeds and peeled the shit out of my minivans tires to the book store (i was going at about 40-60 close to the top speed for my POS car). At the book store ben was getting him a gift card and JJ suggested the great idea of GETTING RYAN A PRON MAG!!!!! we looked at evan who currently has ryan wound around a tight leash with no slack at all........ evan said... 'I dont care" in a very teary eye... we could tell that she was all emotional about this and ben wouldnt do it so jj and i gave up the idea and let ben buy his gift card..... we all then piled into the car and drove towards our utopia.. the house of holland... ohhhh what a great day it was after that... we took ryan out to hooters (after much talking with evan, who might i add had a grand time with the waitresses eh eh) and the waitresses made ryan do a hollah dance, but since he couldnt do it... they left... and hated him for the rest of his days... it wa s agood day for democracy...lol
we gave ryan his presents he thanked us all greatly..... cept for jj.... he hated jj's present... lol joshin of course.... that is when i took a big look inside myself(my cash pocket) and found the will to go to the movies... so we drove to edwards for ancorman.... woot woot.... we payed for the parking in a shit load of change i coudlnt keep a straight face through it all....... but it was funny like 60 pennies, 1 quater, 15 nickels and 4 dimes.... it was classic.......we then couldnt find a parking space that i liked... until the empty level 9......we all went to the movie enjoyed it and went back to the car...... to my house for cake and pool........ we sent evan packing after a while and then the guys had a night out... jj complaining of not being so thoroughly intoxicated, i found it in myself(my heart and soul) to enjoy the great enjoyments of booze well at least tried to... didnt find shit.... moving on.....ben left us leaving us broken and alone.... jj, ryan, and i, tired, went to bed only to awaken to go to WENDY's TEHH WOOT!!!!!! their frosties and fries are teh bomb....... yep yep yep....... after that we went our sepperate ways and i returned home for 2 days of relaxation until NEWKCOMBES GAY ASS TENNIS CAMP WOOOOOOO... lame... the night before im playing fairyland with josh and my mom comes in and was like get some rest matt, i ofcourse said ofcourse my eyes are already heavy and ill probaly be checking in in about 10-15 mins she then said well you will be getting up early in order to pack and i respond with... well im already packed and then she said well we are a tribe.. i was thinking what the hell does that have to do with anything so i ask her because i didnt feel like putting the pieces to this complicated predicament.. she slams the door in my house and blows half the house up wiht her rage.... wasnt pretty... i told josh ot lay low... he was like thanks and went into this bomb shelter (the garage apartment) the rage finaly died down and then it was off to the tennis camp of... boredom

not much to report on the tennis cmap thing... it was well lame... my double partner and i run the doubles tournie... wooo....... a bunch of hosers were there if you ask me... these guys asked me hey matt hav eyou ever been drunk before.. i said yeah plenty of times... and then they asked hey matt hav eyou ever been drunk then smoked a cigarette and im thinking what a bunch of friggen nerds and i answer with of course back in the day i got tour up but now im only for good clean holsome fun (winky face) and then they were like wow matt you did everyting and i just laughed and went off to talk to the councelors......... they were pretty cool... ester and her bro... yep yep yep yep yep..... that is about that

i got a new book, dracula. yeahh im totaly looking forward to reading it.. ill tell youse guys how it goes.. im starting to rethink this being my last post but it is still a pretty good post is it not??? sighhhh yeahh i probaly will post again but i might not...l depends on how much responses me gets from this one... I NEED ENCOURAGEMENT PEOPLE COME ONNNNNNNN!!!!!!!! lol....
leaving with this note
i love you all and you should all play fairy land... and this dude looks like a lady bammmm aerosmith..... yeahhh enough said

payce out to my homeskillets

DUECE!!

your lovable and single matt... (i need a woman =P)

SOMETHING BIG!

2004-07-12T22:19:25Z

SOMETHING BIG IS GOING DOWN IN THE LAND OF MATT!!!! you will all hear about it after and if it happens =P. I cant promiss much but i can promiss that this will be BIG!!! BIGGER THAN BIG!!!!!!! HUGE!!!!

stand tuned =P

OUR BIRTHDAY!

2004-06-21T11:32:48Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATT!!!!

can you believe that we have been sharing a body for what..... 17 years now? its amazing......

=P

grimz @ 2004-06-14T07:11:00

2004-06-14T12:13:32Z

ok ok ok i know i said the last one would be the last update but this is BIG news...

Ok.... so JJ is STAYING in MOTHER FUCKING KANSAS!!!! you all know what that means?? NO MORE FUCKING BAND PRACTICE! NONE ITS ALL GONE!! GONE GONE GONE!!! my dreams... my hopes..... my life's passion.... gone.......... ohhhh well life goes on =P

sighh looks like ryan and i will have to find a replacement... didnt want to.... i was happy with jj....... why jj?? why??...................ill probaly continue writing in live journal just because i have nothing better to do...... so yeah..... lets see.....

what has happend to me besides having my life come crashing down upon my head....... Ryan, Ben, and I hung out with traci and let me tell you when ben doesnt wnat to do something.... he will let you know....... he'll do it.... but he will let you know... it was nonstop WHY THE FUCK DOES SHE HAVE TO LIVE ALL THE FUCK OUT HERE brah brah but eventualy he calmed down and we picked up traci to go see SHREK II!!!!!!!! funny movie... any way funny thing happend traci was trying to pay for her ticket in a SHIT load of change...... the people behind her were like OMG!!!!!!! and i was like here traci here is a 5 and bam the people behind her were like TMG(thank my god). Well my friends dad had recoverd from prostate cancer and found jesus.... WTF!? is like cancer the real meaning behind christianity???? sure seems like it =P both are spreding like the plague... not really but i saw what i want to whoever i want whenever i want....

so who here can safely say they have had sex with a cow??? no one...... hopefully........... who would have sex with a cow... it would be like having sex with a......... guy..... big brutes of creatures with the intellegence of a wet dish clothe.... i swear to god i mean i was like 3 inches away from one of them in a pick up truck honking and revin the engine like no other and it wouldnt move..... and jj is leaving ryan and i......

Ryan it is a dark chapter for LACP
sighhhhhhh

whats the point? every one i know is leaving............. i guess i will always have my books *eyes fall out* OHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

sighhh =P well i wont just sit here and watch the band break up
RYAN PACK YOUR DAMN BAGS WE ARE LEAVING FOR KANSAS AND WE ARE TAKING JJ BACK TO HOUSTON!!!!! operation dontletthebanddie is now in progress....

i feel like im going to throw up.... the last time i had this feeling was after taking my first bong hit.... ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh those were the days man....... i thought i could handle it and i bit off WAY more than i could chew.... =P but i didnt throw up... i kept gagging though and cody and ben were freaking out and then my mom came outside and we were like OH SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!! OH FUCKING SHIT!!!!! and we ran to our front lawn(We were in the house next door, well the house that used to be there not that palace) and pretended to be looking through ben's car...... but on about the house next to us

i snuck in there the other day... IT IS FRIGGEN HUGE!!!! its backyard is even bigger than ours...... there is going to be a great hall and everything..... i swear.. i really hope that some hot chick around the age of 17 moves in there and likes me.... that would be friggen sweet.... i would constantly go over there....... be like hey whats crackin B? and she will answer nothing much matt pour some sugar on me.... =P sighhh but that is never going to happen... why? because every one can hit... but no one can catch... =P dont ask please...... any way im going to siege the house and i need some people to help me... because i would just look foolish by myself duhhhhhh
SO PEASANTS COUNTRY MEN LEND ME YOUR EARS!! WE MUST STOP THE EMPIRE THAT IS BEING BUILT RIGHT NEXT TO US! BRING FORTH YOUR KNIGHT HERITAGE AND LET US STRIKE THE ENEMY WHILE IT IS STILL WEAK! LET US REND THEIR HEAD FROM THEIR SHOULDERS! THEY WILL RULE THE DAY THEY STOLE MY KINGDOM FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sways a sword about*... =P

NWN IS TEH PWN!! RYAN WE NEED TO OWN SOME MORE!!! seriously dude we are getting behind on our pwnage.... i mean remember back in the day every game we played.... they would know who the fuck we were..... they would be like oh thats matt and ryan, they are soooo cool.... "YOU GUYS FUCKING ROCK! PLEASE OH PLEASE LET ME SUCK YOUR COCK!" sighh remember those days? we were cyber pimps.... with canes... CANES!!!!!!!! =P

Im planning on putting spinners on the mini-van..... sweeettttt then im painting that sucka black and putting a big fat grim reaper =P
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grimz @ 2004-06-09T18:49:00

2004-06-09T23:34:24Z

sigh............
taking chemistry and making friends what do you get? another day older and deeper in debt =P

well...... lets see...... not much to report...

i havent been sleeping much of late... in the past 4 days i probaly have a combined total of like 17 hours of sleep..... but im not tired when it is like midnight i dont know whats up with me.... maybe im just living in dread of the day that is to aproach.... sighh bet no one realizes it happens =P hmmmmmm well not much is happening in the world of matt, if you dont like it... well then you can help... GIVE ME SOMETHING TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..... =P.......

im bored and lonely of late and i dont know why....... I have started to talk to myself again(IN MY HEAD PEOPLE!) and let me tell you guys.... that emerson is a friggen dick...... =P cold day in hell is still a friggen awesome song...... i wish i wrote it........

the band... going nowhere but down... we need JJ back.... ryan wont learn his parts..... JJ is helping some dumb homeless people...... i mean what happend to laughing at cancer pantients???????? i dont know any more.....

well that is enough of me ranting for today..... not that anybody reads this.......... this will probaly be the last update.......

latas

add on

2004-06-09T05:47:00Z

check out evan's LJ entry for 6-8-04 at 11:38 pm,me thinks i dont know how i remember something like that but yeah, to see what i deal with every day.... =P

ANOTHER CRACKPOT THEORY!

2004-06-09T05:18:06Z

I dont know about yall..... but I seem very wierd to myself.... Like I change to match my surroundings.... I mean yeah people act like different around different groups cant change that though i dont like it, PROMOTE EQUALITY, but Im different...
Like if i start hanging out with someone more, or if i meet someone new and chill with them a bit, I like take on their personality, or at least a fraction on it. AND IM BEING TOTALY SERIOUS! Like i noticed when i start to hang around quiet people more often i become more quiet, and when i start hanging around more talkative peoplem i become more quiet. This is even the friggen same for my god damn drug life. Like for a month or so, me hanging around with people who dont do them and get high off of life, i didnt really care for them at all, but now that im hanging around ben and ryan more..... im getting more into them i just dont know... IS THIS FRIGGEN NORMAL!? it is kinda scary because if people have this much friggen influence over me..... IM NOT REALLY ME.... Im a everybody i have ever hung around...... I guess if i just keep meeting new people ill become so a big mess of things everyone would have to like something in me.... Does anyone else notice that in me?

Anyway I promised a crackpot theory, which i had, but i got a little sidetracked, and i cant think of it....... O yes... i was asked by someone if i had a time machine that could only give you one trip would i go forward or backwards in time? I have thought about this for a pretty long time and asked some people the question to see what they say.... And i have evaluated both... the past, i could become famous by stealing some one else ideas you know or i could go back and meat like mozart or someone, but i wouldnt really want to steal anybody's invention. It would be kinda, well not kinda completely, lame of me to take credit for something that Bach or yngwie or led zeppelin wrote because i wanted to be famous... and as far as going back to meet some one... why bother? i have pretty much their entire life in books and records..... So i looked to the future... mysterious....... kind of strikes my curiosity... because i dont know what the future would hold.... i mean like the earth could have been blown up and all humans thrown into slavery by an alien race or the earth could totaly be like utopia and every one lives in peace and embraces technology and the arts and no one dies and no one suffers and it is just utter bliss day in and day out... and heroin was legal.. =P..... I kept thinking about the pluses and minuses of them both and i came up with the conclusion that i just wouldnt take the friggen time machine.... The future is unpredicable and just unrealiable and the past is just pointless....... So i figured one shouldnt look into the past because there is no point and cant possibly do you any good so it could only cause pain and one cant look into the future..........*shrugs* im still trying to find my damn purpose yall =P

Hmmmmm I feel like i should say something more... there is some one who isnt a TOTAL dork in my chemistry summer course.... its this chick lol........ she is still pretty dorky but by far not the extreme as the others..... such as myself and eric =P..... Ohh well.... i wonder...... should i pull a ryan??? and talk about how i feel about some people.....nahhhhh......... most people know exactly how i feel about them and the few that dont, dont know me... soo yeahh

PAYCE NIKKAS!

ps: i know its lame but bare with me people

not much

2004-06-07T20:58:17Z

Well not much is happening in the life of matt.....

I havent updated but its not like any one really reads this any way soooo moving on...

I had a lan party yeah it was pretty cool... didnt play as much starcraft as i had hoped but we played Counter strike which i guess is more appealing to others but i perfer my strategy games...... I went to my Chem of the summer experience.... boring yep yep yep.... A BUNCH OF FRIGGEN NERDS lol =P

well i guess ill write about the lan so more

the lan was cool i guess..... We played CS alot and a little SC on the side.... Alot of shooting took place and it was pretty much ryan and i owning or being owned....... depending on the game of course... and the people we played against... daniel, ben, josh, and ryan all showed up and claire wouldnt return my calls or be home because she was off in this fantasy land called "colorado." But she was missed.... I need more people at my lans seriously they are getting really small so small i can barely see them =P

i really want to have band practice with ALIEN BEAST! =P sighh but alas JJ is away and off having the time of his life while ryan and i try our best to make do and support the band.. I think we could start playing gigs if we got together........

Lets see...... do any of yall ever know that feeling that like you feel so strongly about it one point then after i dont know a month... you realize it was kinda stupid and unsupported..... I just had one of those..... Yeah I guess i was a little too mad at joanna.... aww who am i kidding i was lousy..... but i guess i screwed up things with her because of my little fits of rage (GRRRRR) well i guess ill just say im sorry right here and now IN PUBLIC. yeahh im sorry for being the jerk i am people sorry =P well im sorry... But i hope life goes on...... hmmmmmmmmmmm i really want to get together with some people like right now...

GOD IM SO LONELY! lol =P

moving on........ i finished reading catcher in the rye for the second time again yesterday me thinks... i really like that book... and some people dont like that book and say things like it doesnt have a plot and it was just holden going around and doing stupid things....But i dont think they really got into the book because i certainly saw a plot and im sorry but holden is that type of character you just fall for.... he really is... i would like to know a guy like holden in real life.... =P
yeahh so there is the update on my boring life

Payce

thursday

2004-05-28T19:07:47Z

Well the first day of summer was pretty crappy till the end.........

i found out i failed my bio final but i still passed bio thankfully..... said a temporary good bye to all my friends and I turned down a couple of parties because i was invited to joannas.....

I wont go into detail on what happend to joanna's party all im going to say is that well....... it got moved and ryan and i were not informed of where it was soooo we waited and yeah.... So i got home(2 hours later) and im pretty ticked..... My older sister offers her carring shoulder and i turn it down and then i hung out with hannah, evan, erin, and giovanna.... we went to go get some sushi it was pretty cool and then i tried on some cool new dresses at some random girl store....... i mistook a top for a skirt.... i swear some thigns the girls wear now a days..... any who after that we all went to borders and learned of 365 new sex positions..... quite right, quite right....... yeah so then after our appetite for sexual knowledge was fed we went to star bucks and yeahhhhh...... then we walked back to my place and i introduced them to bill engvall, funny guy he is.

At about 8 or so the 4 girls went to hannahs and i went over to bens where I had some hamburgers with his family. We watched snatch, funny movie. Then I took some mind altering substances to numb the pain of the real world =P
woke up at about 10:30 or some of his sisters music went into his car and went to Mc to tha Ds, but they stopped serving breakfast at 10:30 and we arrived there at 10:40 or something like that.... so we drove through the window and ben yelled TACO BELL!!! and then we, you guessed it, went to taco bell. Ben didnt eat most of his food and I ate the rest of his as well as mine.... i still wonder how the hell i wont gain wieght.... ticks me off..... =P How will i ever become a fat black boy........... sighhhhhhhh lol =P

that is what has happend over the summer

Payce

last day of school

2004-05-22T02:58:20Z

well today was the last real day of school..... untill summer where i get to take ULTRA CHEMISTRY 5000.342 AT RICE U!!!!! PWNED!!!! day at school was like any other day until my friends and I read this old book where all the ink was smeared and all of a sudden was transported to a far away land where we faught under certain conditions...... if your not understanding me then i think some one needs to play some video games....... lol =P or i need to get a life any who

I went to go see Shrek 2 with hannah and giovanna...... brilliant gals those 2 (^_^) I showed up 15 mins late but i was still early for the movie but i still showed up late. Why do you ask? this isnt like matt.... yeah i know, i know..... ben called me DRUNK OFF HIS FRIGGIN ASS and told me about him punching a wall but it wasnt really a wall it was a step............ and how he wanted to drive some where kinda convinced him not to but yeahhhhhhhhhh any way i finally show up(i saw giovanna and hannah from the fifth floor and i wanted just to sit there and look at them..... they didnt look happy lol) THE MOVIE WAS AWESOME THOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!! they gave me a ticket for the wrong movie, but me being the rebel i am snuck in undetected and stealthfully...... Shrek 2 was funny, seriously....... i dont recall a time i wasnt about to laugh or laughing.......... i wont ruin any of it..... OK just this one part my friggin favorite part..... 2 knights are giving the headless horseman a soberity test... like the one that you have to touch your nose........ but he is headless..... SEE THE DAMN MOVIE!!!!!!!!!! and PREPARE FOR PUSSSSS in boots.......... if i had to rate it i would give shrek 2 a 5 out 5! 5 FRIGGIN GOLDEN STARS!!!!!!!!! it rivaled the first one..... seriously..... if you liked the first one YOULL LOVE THE SECOND ONE..... the sequal acctually met up if not serpassed my expectations..... just friggin beautiful.....

GO SEE SHREK 2!!!

IM A CONSUMER WHORE!!! lol =P

Matt

grimz @ 2004-05-18T21:33:00

2004-05-19T02:21:22Z

well......... i have lost my purpose that hit me and gave me so much happiness for a brief while but..... it was awesome while it lasted........... Hannah and I broke up also...... sucks, but couldnt be avoided..... stupid london............ lol well hannah will be missed......

I have come to the conclusion that the world hates you when your happy.... or at least happier then it is..... so it really brings you down and so that is can find its equilibrium or something but that isnt the point..... The point is I miss the old days..... Ryan has started to rub off on me and I do remember acctualy being happy alot more back in the days of old. I dont know when my life stopped being the great ball of happiness it was but all i know now is that it isnt.... kinda miss those days.. I cant really say anything that truelly makes me happy any more...... because i mean some one will have a problem with it and i dont think it is right to have fun at other people's suffering...... but im a CREEEPPP lol =P radiohead always cheers me up..... righttttttttt

im being really emotional......... well i mean what is wrong with being emotional? I mean it is after all what sets us apart from dogs and cats and animals.... emotions and rational thinking so why is it an insult to be called emo??? or why do people hold it against them??? Why do emotions hold people's shun instead of their praise? i guess it just goes back to the world just not liking you to be happy.... or maybe it just hates emotions.... but i mean look at the romantic era... MY FAVORITE ERA in the arts, literature you name it.... Poe love him dearly..... i mean there are the realist.... like dickens.... the most LAME people i hade to study........ Realists.... not devoid of emotions but rather a kinda of shun instead of the full embrace of them as the romantics did.... i dont know where im going with this....

any way im just telling every body....... that im not myself because..... i guess im trying to find my self NOW STOP BUGGING ME!!!!!!

lol

Matt

moms birthday party

2004-05-12T01:43:29Z

well here is another section of my life for all you non-believers out there thinking my parents are just the sweetest thing.

Today was my mothers "30th" birthday. This idea was inspired from MOI because i know its hard to accept the fact that your 50 so i decided hey lets throw her 30th birthday. So the day gets going pretty good and then guess what happens..... we go to jacks. Day is still going pretty good then EB brings up the fact that amy never wears her gucci glasses any more and amy responds with Anna Rose stole them. Now i know half of you guys are going to be like OMG dont be so mean she is so sweet... well she isnt she steals all my stuff and breaks it, not cool. moving right along my mom responds with WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO WITH THOSE $360 GLASSES?! I CANT BELIEVE YOU LOST THEM RAHHHH YOU BETTER FIND THEM. After she finishes her ranting and the mood dies down a bit she spills ketchup on her shirt. Thats when my mom was all like the damn dry cleaners dont do a good job blah blah fuck shit blah yeah you guys get the picture. so mom is pissed off and then Anna Rose says that she didnt steal the glasses because some how we got back on it..... but Anna Rose starts crying(they're fake folks) and saying she didnt do it and making a scene and mom decides its time to go home

So we go home and and i look at the house being built next to ours and i say "MAN thats going to be a niceeee house." my mom responds with "WHAT IS WRONG WITH OUR HOUSE IF YOU DONT LIKE OUR HOUSE THEN YOU CAN JUST LEAVE!" and i say "HELL YEAH ILL MOVE INTO THAT HOUSE RIGHT OVER THERE!" and if you dont know me and my mom i say things like that when she gets unneccasarily mad. Any way that usualy calms her down and it did for a little while and dad says hey guys search Anna Rose's room for amy's glasses so we start doing that.

We search for about i dont know..... 30 minutes until we find, COULD IT BE? yes amy's $360 glasses in anna rose's closet...... anna rose's defense "IT WAS THE DOG!" i didn't understand it either folks. so my dad gives Anna Rose the talking she has deserved for a long time....Mom thinks he is being a little harsh on her because he raised his voice at her when she was screaming at him......... my mom is crazy i swear it..... and then she goes up and talks to Anna Rose...... and after about 30 mins, mom comes down.......... and ANNA ROSE IS QUILT FREE!!!! SHE DID NOTHING WRONG!!!! MY FRIGGIN ASS!!!! i was laughing at this...... every one else thought it was bull crap and so EB and amy get offended and i go with them becasue i was a little offended at this and mom says "I RAISED A BUNCH OF SPOILED SHITS!" and i laugh again..... i dont see HOW i could truelly forgive Anna Rose for always trying to get me into trouble.... seriously i dont hit her and she screams and cries and says i hit her..... an di get a talkin to...... but moving on..... yeah so my mom goes up stairs and gets mad at the TV and says she is going to throw that out of the window........ Then my DAD takes mom's side and i dont see him even trying to justify it because he cant.... nor could Anna Rose WHO might i add said nothing close to the lines of Im sorry for this entire occurance.... LAMEEEE sighhh and so im brought here.......

sighhhhhh ohhh well just another day i guess
matt

San Fran

2004-05-05T20:50:05Z

well i got back from San Fran yesterday but im just talking about it today because i was rather busy yesterday...... lets see i went to school on friday and then got back from it and left my house at around 4.......

the plane ride up there was BORINNGGGGGG and long and the movies they had us watch was tres lame......... it was that one with nick cannon and something about love not costing anything im not sure..... any way it was boring so i just listend to my music and looked at the hills that we flew over..... it loooked cool super cool!!!! any way I got in san fran and guess what was at the air port to pick us up...... A LIMO!!! A MOTHER FRIGGIN LIMO!!!! STRETCH EVEN tres awesome so we rode to our hotel in a LIMO!!!!! A LIMO!!!! lol any way the room was the imperial suite for the rest of my family i got my own room which was very cool.... but the suite was crazy..... two stories, 6 rooms, 2 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, a porch that overlooked San Fran, a big screen TV with DVD and VHS player, a pool table, baby grand piano, and all the snacks and booze one could want. I just crashed there then went to bed at around 12 or so.....

Saturday: My dad, anna rose, amy and I went to go see miur woods, alcatraz, and fisher man wharf...... In miur woods we did like 2 and a half miles in an hour and still got pictures. Anna rose was complaining that she wasnt in any pictures, so amy told her to pose took a picture then said good job...... it was funny at the time and amy was always looking for A BIGGGGG GTREEE!!!!!! lol we were surrounded by red woods but they werent big enough to satify amy's thirst lol =P. so miur woods was cool then we went to fisherman wharf and just looked around and saw some live performers and there were these guys who were just CRAZZZZYYYYY at break dancing and we just saw them warm up........ LAME. but i knew they were good because some guy tried to show them up and this white dude goes up and just rips all hell.... these guys were all like fakey boneless to freeze to windmill to super deluxe move 5000 lol any way then we went to alcatraz and it was cool for the second time just like everything else besides the break dancers..........i walked around the rec yard which was fun and i laughed at the fools who got put in there.... and my dad said something about a movie made about the bird man and said it was wrong because the guy wasnt a kind gentle soul but rather a psyco..... yeahhh something about killing two people lol nothing major =P but yeah after alcatraz we went back to our place at like 6 or so and partied till like 9 then i slept in till 9 the next day

Sunday: we went to china town.... LAME.... just an overcrowded section of san fran with asian architecture..... total tourist trap lol then we went to japan town.... which was pretty cool it was just like the japan culture.... mostly american =P some how we spent the entire day at these two places and i complained about not going to Haight and ashbury which i have a very cool shirt from...... but we got back at like 4 and watched finding nemo and it was funny because hell its a fish...... fish cant talk..... thats funny..... right?? lol =P

Monday: AWESOME DAY..... went to my moms conference and i had to be very dressed up for it....... VERYYYYY lol it was a bunch of nerds... =P well they were nerds but they were so friggin smart..... they some how connected genetics to different diseases and saying if you have this gene sequence you are more likely to get the cold and all these different diseases.... very hard to follow but that was just the start of the day..... we then went to HAIGHT ASHBURY AFTER THE TALK IT WAS SOOOOO COOOOOOOOOLLL!!!... lol it really was.... the shops were like smoothie joint, head shop, health shop, head shop and so forth..... and we foudn this reallllly cool shirt shop. The place was just heaven to me....... i mean cool houses....... cool local shops..... and best of all...., PARKS!!! an di mean like real parks..... like swing set and the works like we have but then HILLS AND TREES TO CLIMB AND yeahh it was awesome.... and i dont think i have mentioned but the entire trip one person kept popping into my head and i kept thinking how cool it would to have that person with me.... i wont say who because i want to see yall guess lol =P im so caring any way moving on.............we walked to the top of this hill in buena vista park or something like that and it overlooked almost all of san fran view was TRES BIEN!!! lol =P any way lets see............. we went back and had room service and watched along came polly which was acctualy pretty funny and i liked it...... I DID!!!!!! lol =P and after that i packed for tomorrow...

Tuesday: woke up at like 6 got packed was at the air port at about 9 and then left ground at about 11 and yeah.... got back in houston at like 5.......... and got back home to my waiting party that wasnt thrown so i was very veyr vyer dissapointed.....
VERY!!!

any way that's san fran....... i love you all............

mizatt on the attizack.... word

its me again

2004-04-30T20:52:22Z

here is a test result i just took thus prooving to all you non believers that IM ONE SICK COOCKIE!!!

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

read em and weep high on most =P

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

except sam......................he's a smoker =P jussss joshin sam............or am i?

well some changes and SAN FRAN

2004-04-30T20:12:07Z

Well.... ill be leaving for San fran soon and i still need to get my plane bag packed so this will be quick....... i changed up the live journal and yeah...... i like the little grim reaper not the one i wanted but it will just have to do i guess..... because LJ is a bunch of nazis who just get off on getting little kids down..... jerks lol =P any whooooo ill miss you ALL!!!! and ill try to get some things for yall.... if i find something that just screams your name then yeah you will get it lol =P if not meh...... well later peeps just remember follow your dreams.... they can be accomplished!!

PAYCE OUT!!!

i love you all

your lovable single matt who needs a hobby........ or a girlfriend........ or both........ perferably both lol =P

SAN FRAN HERE I COME!!!!